Hey Charlene,
I just… I honestly don’t know what to say or do anymore. I feel like we’ve been going in circles with this, and I’m just tired of all the fighting back and forth. I don’t want that between us. I just need to be honest with you and lay it out.
About the emergency leave… here’s how it can actually help us. Once it’s processed and the payment is made, it will give us some real flexibility—like giving us time to focus on us, handle things without stress, and manage whatever unexpected situations come our way. It’s designed to help people in situations like ours, where we’re apart and things can get complicated. The benefits after the payment will make certain things easier for us financially and emotionally, so we won’t be constantly worrying about small setbacks.
I’m telling you this not to pressure you, but because I care about us and I want us to have every advantage possible to make our life smoother, even with the distance. I’m exhausted from the ups and downs, and I can’t keep going like this. So I’m sending you this voice message to explain how I feel and what this could mean for us.
Now, honestly… the choice is yours, Charlene. I love you, I want us to work, but I also can’t force anything. I just hope you can see that I’m trying my best for us.
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